I am bored and that’s okay. [009].
Empty Night
This week, I had (almost) nothing to do, and I was bored.
Work was mostly onboarding, and drudgery, so nothing interesting. I did my best to be present, smile, and be there all the time Being present can be very draining if you’re actively focusing.
And I was bored. There was nothing in my calendar to look forward to, and it felt like an empty night.
And yet, it turned out OK. I managed to make some plans for the weekend. I’m good-exhausted, because it turned out to be a full week after all. When I had time, I did some studying in advance or rested before I was tired.
And it worked out. Turns out, leaving a bit of space allows me to spend it, and leave space for luck to happen.
About a year ago, I would’ve planned everything out and tried to stuff my schedule fully. But I would’ve left no space for serendipity, and I would be breathless, unhappy, and unsatisfied.
I have to be better about writing down goals and finishing them.